This past week has been a whirlwind. I’ve been in a state of depression and shock. Life, literally, stopped. All of I’ve been doing is reminiscing on happier times. Remembering times to laughter and love. Of the higher points in life where nothing else mattered but the joy we where experiencing in that moment. Today,… Continue reading Nappy
About 90% of my friends and family keep up with me via Facebook and I’ve always been grateful for that. Social media helped with my social anxiety because I’ve never really been one for PEOPLE. I was able to CONNECT with people that didn’t require their physical body. But I’ve been working on that for… Continue reading Coming out
Just saw this on my timeline on Facebook and it added to the pain I already felt in my heart. But then I thought about it. The people who post things like this are simply reincarnated klan members trying to identify themselves as new age klan members. They want to go viral. The original poster… Continue reading Is this where we are?
My biggest hope has always been to be “chosen”. I’ve always wanted someone to “pick me” and say I matter. I’ve been seeking validation for as long as I can remember. Why do we seek approval from outside sources to confirm our worth? After the rain...
It’s been years since we first met. In these years, I have grown beyond what I ever imagined. I have learnt a million lessons, won a hundred battles …Go Away
It just dawned on me that suffering is the regret of missing out on life. It’s the pain of remembering that there were better times and you didn’t see them. Suffering is a mindset. Agony is when the suffering is so intense that it physically manifests as excruciating pain. I feel like suffering has a… Continue reading Suffering and agony— and a little bit of karma
I see now why people search their entire lives for a soul mate. A twin flame. The person that you connect with on a level deeper than physical touch. The one you don’t have to explain yourself to, because they know. That person that is the ultimate reflection of you, and their existence reminds you… Continue reading Reflection
Pulling him in mentally to push him back physically. Loving to feel him but hating to think of him. Starving him of attention so he could give her more of his own. She’s affectionate and chaotic. Damaged and strong. Hurt, but healing. All or nothing. Loyal and unforgiving. And still, he has the elasticity of… Continue reading Mind games….
God blessed me with sons I have as an everlasting reminder to practice patience with the male species. My entire adult life has been shaped around pain caused by males so much that I, at some point, made a subconscious decision to not invest too much of my attention into any male. At some point,… Continue reading My Suns
My heart hurts. I can feel the pain, like a dull ache in the center of my chest. It feels like a sharp stab with a dull knife after ever beat. It’s only that I’m really still that I can feel the sensation in my body. It’s subtle but intense. I’m not sure if this… Continue reading what is it?